jam-coated cleone

Beat me! I am hooked. Ottoke? Ottoke?

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This entry again is about love.
Dang. Foolish. Me. Strikes. Again. But I love it. Nyahahaha. Beat me. :p
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see.. I am having this really high school-ish crush over someone. Heck, I am kind of shaken. Whoooozzz.. A while back, I saw this someone ---for security purposes I will call him Jam-Coated-Cleone.

Why this name? Jam-Coated-because I don't want to use sugar-coated. simple. nyahaha. Cleone-because I was thinking of a symbol that is a little deep. (?!?!) At that time, I just opened my yahoo mail and I saw this notif on my daemon, Cleone. Daemon. Soul. Why not? So he is my jam-coated soul. I can hear roarings: eww. yuck. and all the sort :D

This is not going to be a discourse on how and when and where this matter of great importance (?!?!) occurred. Too dangerous.

I am a proud person. My pride is higher than the tip of my hair strands defying gravity. I have had too many bloopers that are enough to make me shrink but my ego seems to have a way of creeping up--like an insect you thought you had crushed but surprisingly pops in on the most delicate spots. But, why oh why I cannot open my mouth properly and make sensible inference on things as if I never expended my life reading, reading and reading; as if I don't and will not make sense; as if I am...the greatest insignificant asshole of the 21st century. (I think this line is in Wanted. :))

This is so like the first time I had a liking on someone. I can still remember his face. Fair. Tall. Puppy-eyed. Wind-swept hair..and the buck teeth. Then, his features were charming but now..its kinda..funny. FYI my dear first crush, I never paid attention to the Top Gun movie we watched.

Beat me.

aku cape re-post: i stand corrected. terimakasih bob.

i'd say, it was ambitious to command another tongue. but bob is great to give the better translation.

terimakasih, teman baru, bob nicolaus.

originally, this was entitled. aku cape. but according to boss andeka, when using "tired" in literature, it should be letih or lelah. Well, i chose lelah coz it charms my ears.

so many thanks to avantrade-jatis team. you all cool peeps. :D

aku lelah
aku lelah
bagaikan ombak
kau memukau diriku
dengan kecantikanmu yang mendua
pelan namun bersahaja
kekanak-kanakan namun juga bijak
setia namun tak tergambarkan

seperti halnya sang ombak
kau selalu memikat dan menggodaku
memelukku dan merasuk sukmaku
(terlepas dari tujuanmu yang tak menentu)
dan selalu
kau tinggalkanku di saat ku inginkan dirimu lebih

aku lelah...
sangat lelah...
ingin hati tuk berteduh
hingga fajar pun, perlahan berlalu

aku cape

originally, i wanted to just post the bahasa version of the poem that so instantaneously came to me

----yeah.it always come to me like a smooth diarrhea most specially when the object of frustration/inspiration is just so three minutes ago!!-----

just so i'd kind of fool myself that i have another language brewing in my tongue. but no. fact is, i pestered three nice indonesians for the translation. (terimakasi! cecil k., david t. and my very brilliant boss, ferry a. you're the man. ha-ha. aku pambohong! ha-ha again.)

drop of truth: while i was scribbling the poem, kathleen g.'s face was like invading my brainspace!
goddess-friend, we can't control destiny. ha-ha. our stories will always be parallel coz we're of the same built!!! this poem is a humble offering to you: while i am cold, i know you're bleeding. this shall be a soothing balm.

--patay tau kay beej, ang arte natin! hahah--

i am tired
like the waves
you amazed me
with your conflicting beauty
both weak and determined
both childish and wise
both faithful and faithless

but just like the waves
you will lure me and tempt me
and embrace me and possess me
(despite your random purposes)
and just like it
you will leave me when i want you more

I am tired
...very tired...
and desperate for refuge

dusk, too, is fleeting.

aku cape
sepekati ambale,
memukau ku
dengan kecantikanmu yg memu kau
baik lemah atau terbatas
baik kekanak tanakan atau bijak
baik setia atau ketidak percayaan


tetapi serti ambak
kau memikat dan mengoda ku
peluk aku miliki aku
(tanpa maksudmu)
dah hanya seperti itu
kamu akan pergi ketika
aku semakin menginginkanmu

aku cape
..cape sekali..
dan putus asa
busan bersem banyi

fajar berganti.

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disclaimer: billy, this is a release. you love me and kat, right? :D
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